December 2011
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“It is better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an imitation of...”
– Anonymous, The Bhagavad Gita
November 2011
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“It is always the false that makes you suffer, the false desires and fears, the...”
– Nisargadatta Maharaj
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The truth and all its misery
There came the day she had to tell him the truth. She had dreaded this day. The truth always bored her half to death. But there was no way around it. She looked him deep in the eyes and said, with a most serious look on her face: “The truth is, and I can’t possibly tell you how much I hate to use that dreadful word, that I do not wish to be associated with you any longer. I enjoyed our...
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“I dream. Sometimes I think that’s the only right thing to do.”
– Haruki Murakami, Sputnik Sweetheart
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“Tell people there’s an invisible man in the sky who created the universe, and...”
– George Carlin
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“Sometimes I’d rather be a tree frog. I don’t think they fall asleep worried that...”
– Stephen Fry
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Fuck fitting in
I have worn the same pair of jeans for years. I will continue to wear it, until it falls of my body. New clothes don’t make me happy. So why should I get them? Society tells me this is wrong. Society tells me to earn money, to buy, to consume. New clothes, new shoes, new furniture, new stuff, society tells us those things make us happy. Do those things really make us happy? Maybe some people,...
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“Socializing is as exhausting as giving blood. People assume we loners are...”
– Anneli Rufus
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What's wrong, darling?
She saw the sadness in his eyes as she walked through the door. He sat there trying to look cheerful, but God knows he was failing.
“What’s wrong, darling?” She asked him as she took his hand is hers.
“I’m scared, frightened,” he replied quietly.
“Of what?”
“Of what my life would be without you.”
And as he spoke those words, her heart fluttered. For a moment she thought...
August 2011
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Sick of dying
He is sick and dying. Well, except for the dying part, but he is most definitely sick. Or maybe he isn’t sick at all, maybe he is just a human being. One of those human beings who, every time they have a cold, feel like they are sick and dying. And they are never dying a normal quiet death. No, oh no, it is never that easy. They always die horrible painful, and especially, loud deaths. After they...
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Painful relationships
Horrendous break up. Get back together. It’s still the same. Break up again. Heartbreak. Missing. Get back together. It’s still the same. It should work. Counseling. Break up. Hurt. Trying to forget. Can’t forget. What now? Oh shit. Oh no. Help. It’ll definitely work now. Get back together. It doesn’t work. Break up. Ouch. Oh. Painful heartache. Life does go on. Feeling better. Strength. Hope....
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Alzheimer
He was in his early fifties when it started. Alzheimer. It started off slowly, forgetting appointments, forgetting things in the grocery store. Then he couldn’t read or watch TV. He had to stop working a long time ago. So he did what he still could. He gardened. Not just in his own yard, but in our yard too. Our yard never looked as good as when he roamed around in it for hours each day. One day...
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“My writing has gone to bits - like my character. I am simply a self-conscious...”
– Oscar Wilde
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I wished…
Her mind keeps wandering back to places it could better stay away from. Dark, negative memories, all the bad moments in her life. She seems to have had quite a lot of bad moments, terrible happenings, horrible events. Her minds seems strangely attracted to those moments, it finds those moments way more interesting than the good, the better, the best. And therefore, therefore she is miserable....
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The next sixty years.
Sometimes he thinks about the next sixty years and he just feels empty. He has no idea how he is going to get through them, since he barely got through the first twenty years. It all seems useless. To struggle and fight and be miserable for I don’t know how many years, just to die. He doesn’t believe in God. ‘I wished society would be different. I wished society would just let people die who don’t...
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Pity party
Sometimes she has a pity party. Not too often, that wouldn’t be good, but every once in a while there is nothing more useful and enjoyable than a good pity party. And she throw a mean pity party, that’s one thing that’s for sure. Eating ice cream, watching TV shows she would normally not be caught dead watching. (‘You are NOT the father.’ You know what I am talking about.) Some whining, some...
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Perfect bliss
Yesterday evening I started reading ‘The Complete Letters of Oscar Wilde’. And like Virginia Woolf said: ‘…I read myself into a trans of perfect bliss;…’ I read till 3 in the morning and I plan the same thing for tonight. Oscar Wilde fascinates me intensely. The other day I dreamed about him, it sure was horrible to wake up. The best thing about this books is its length. Over 1200 pages. I still...
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I made a decision
At one point sooner or later you are going to have to make a decision. You are going to have to decide whether or not you are going to live. I know you are depressed and I know what that is like. I am still not fine myself. But one day I woke up and I made a decision. It was the first decision I made in months. Depression does that to you, it makes you unable to make decisions. I made a decision...
July 2011
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The beauty of books
Books. Every once in a while I feel the need to rant about books. Books, oh books. What would I do without them. They take me places, they introduce me to worlds unknown to me. They tell me stories, learn me things. Even when I am not reading and all of them just stand in my bookcase together, leaning on one and other like tired old ladies, they whisper at me softly. ‘You are going to be fine. You...
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Lists
I have just finished reading Erlend Loe’s ‘Naïve. Super’. The main character in the book has a thing for lists, and so do I. Now I naturally feel like making lots of lists. So many, as a matter of fact, that I need to make a list of things to make a list of. Things to make a list of: -Animals I have seen (only animals seen in natural habitat count) -Things that got me excited when I was a kid...
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Self-consciousness
There is no way to say this without sounding ridiculous, so I guess I better keep my mouth shut. God forbid I would sound ridiculous.
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Utterly
Turns out I love the word ‘utterly’. I love it in English way more than in my own language, since it translates to ‘volkomen’ or ‘volslagen’ in Dutch and those words are just -utterly- unsatisfying. I could use this wonderful word in every sentence, but of course I try to contain myself, since that would become -utterly- annoying after a sentence or two. I just completely, entirely, fully,...
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Leaving home ain’t easy
Somehow he managed to escape her iron grip. She always told him what to do and especially when to do it, since he is really bad with time. Now he had to make decisions all on his own. Turns out he is utterly unable to do so. He can’t pick the bad choice, let alone the right choice, because he simply can’t make decisions at all. For two weeks he didn’t eat anything because he couldn’t decide what...
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Secrets in the night
Softly, carefully not to wake him up, she whispers in his left ear that she isn’t in love with him anymore. He doesn’t know it yet. He might never know. She doesn’t like change and a break up, well, that’s change. So she doesn’t plan on telling him, when he’s awake anyway. For now, she just settles for telling him every night while he is sound asleep, that she doesn’t love him anymore, that he...
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“I have fought and kicked and fasted and prayed and cursed and cried myself to...”
– Alice Walker
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“After writing a story I was always empty and both sad and happy, as though I had...”
– Ernest Hemingway
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“She was so quiet. So reflective. And she could erase herself, her spirit, with a...”
– Alice Walker
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“You don’t remember what happened. What you remember becomes what happened.”
– John Green
June 2011
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“It takes a lot of time to be a genius. You have to sit around so much, doing...”
– Gertrude Stein
May 2011
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“What a lurid life Oscar Wilde does lead - so full of extraordinary incidents....”
– Max Beerbohm
Just started reading “The Complete Letters of Oscar Wilde”. It is a huge, 1200 page book, containing about 1500 of Wilde’s letters. I am happy right now.
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“What lies behind us and what lies ahead of us are tiny matters compared to what...”
– Henry David Thoreau
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“I’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life...”
– Maya Angelou
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“I love people. Everybody. I love them, I think, as a stamp collector loves his...”
– Sylvia Plath (The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath)
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“Pain and suffering are always inevitable for a large intelligence and a deep...”
– Fyodor Dostoyevsky (Crime and Punishment)
April 2011
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“Deep doubts, deep wisdom; small doubts, little wisdom.”
– Chinese proverb
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Hey guys!
So, I have some news, I started my own website! http://random-people.me
The site is based on my other blog, random-people.tumblr.com.
I would love it if you could take a look, and if you like it, please subscribe and tell your friends (via twitter or facebook for example). I will update the site every day. I hope you enjoy!
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Six word story.
Honey, I love your brother more.
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Six word story.
Nobody knows I killed her, yet.
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“People don’t want their lives fixed. Nobody wants their problems solved....”
– Chuck Palahniuk
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“I felt my lungs inflate with the onrush of scenery — air, mountains,...”
– The Bell Jar (Sylvia Plath)
March 2011
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It ends here.
You let me down. Again. Of course I knew it was coming. I knew what I was in for, but not from the start. If I had known from the start I would have never depended on you the way I do right now. I am not going to take it any longer. It ends here.
Love is blind, and all.
“Love is blind,” they say. I wonder what they say about hate.
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You are one of them.
There are amazing people in this world. A lot of them are misunderstood. You are one of them. One day, the world will know, and understand, how truly amazing and one of a kind you are. Hang on in there.
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Was it?
In the end nothing really matters. In the beginning it does. In the beginning everything matters. I am in the middle now. Sometimes it all matters, sometimes nothing matters at all. It makes me very indecisive. That makes life more difficult, but then again, it was never really easy, was it?
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Dream, people, dream.
Forget your problems and dream the day away.
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Mistakes
Making mistakes. Failing. I don’t like it. But then again, I do a lot of things I don’t like. So I am not entirely surprised by the amount of mistakes I make.
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When I lie down.
Sometimes when I lie down in the grass, flat on my back, I think I can actually feel the earth turning. Of course I never really do, but that doesn’t matter. The truth doesn’t matter all that much, when it comes to things like this. I lie in the grass, I feel the earth turning and I feel part of something. I feel part of the world.